Oh my Dear sweet goodness. I just fell out my chair with Flickr. Notes on my pictures?? Who knew! You'll definitely have to go to flickr.com and check out my photos when I say ready set go so you can see all the cool stuff I did with the photos.
All the best!
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
So What DO you do?
I do to do. I love to capture life. Little slices of it. In pictures, in words, usually out of context.
Typically, scrapbooking is about capturing the perfect moments and only the good times. But is that really an accurate, true picture of who we are? Admittedly, I'm a bit quirky. So maybe I'm just the only one without a perfect life. That said, I do still like what I take the time to create to be beautiful. To be a reflection of my efforts. To be me.
As such, I love the process just as much as the finished product. Some days, I like to keep it simple. Others, I like to go deep. You certainly see that reflected in my scrapbooking but really, I don't scrapbook. I'm a collector, so I collect life. I collect scraps. I collect thoughts, words, moments. Really, though I create, moreso I just organize and shuffle. To that, I'm more of a Collective. Maybe a Collective: Individualized. Yeah...that's it.
Ahhh...Wednesday. I actually do need to work today so off I go. But before I leave you...something simple and fun...
I invite you to live happier. Enjoy life!
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Party Time!
This chica has gone digital. Okay...so this is not the most smashingly smashing bit. BUT! It is my first card so give it a lay already mate.
But really. I love this whole digital thing and as I learn more and more about how to play with it all...this is going to be so fun.
So April 1. Know where I live? Know how to get down to the water? Then you're invited. Otherwise, you gotta luck up on a lucky e-vite to come to this Beachy Housewarming deal.
I cannot believe I just blew $50 on digital scrapbook stuff. I figured it wouldn't be as bad as "real life" scrapping. Yeah right. So many cute things...so little time. I already have some fave designers (can you tell?!). Sigh...time to go do some real scrapping. Just saw a yummy, yummy pasta dish on tv. But...before I go...check out the cool (s)crap[s] you can buy from a po gal just trying to make it already and be inspired to do your own venture by this groovy chic!
Lovely!
Thursday, March 16, 2006
First:
I know...I should be a more considerate blogger and post more often here. But really...this is a scrap blog so when I'm not posting here, I'm actually busy scrapping. yeah right. But let us pretend.
Check this out:
My very first digital layout.
Wow. I think I'm addicted.
Enjoy!
I know...I should be a more considerate blogger and post more often here. But really...this is a scrap blog so when I'm not posting here, I'm actually busy scrapping. yeah right. But let us pretend.
Check this out:
My very first digital layout.
Wow. I think I'm addicted.
It was so easy. I need to learn how to edit stuff once it is layered and how to change .png files so that I can actually move them around on my layout once I alter them but this was so friggin' easy I don't know why I have not moved over to this side sooner. Especially since it is still so relatively new that I could so do this for HoF next year. I'm on it. So on it. Since this is my first (and I'm sure I'll get much better from here), I'll go ahead and post this. This is also my entry for the Epson Digital Scrapbooking contest at the Portland CK convention this weekend. Since it took me a couple of hours to create, I assume that no one else can bite it that quickly before the deadline to enter. Don't hate or I'll stop sharing. Disclaimer aside...
Enjoy!
Friday, February 24, 2006
Okay then. I thought I had posted this here, but I'madorkafobicloser.
Okay.
So...Day after I mail in lovely layout to Creating Keepsakes, I get an email from Scrapbook Trends requesting the exact same layout. Well...without the alterations CK wanted.
When you're hot, you're hot.
So then I posted a play a long challenge for the Scrapbook Survivor gig I didn't make it out of the first round for. Much love. Wanna see it? Here it goes:
Life moves fast. Move with it. Or at least just lean with it and rock with it. I need music in my life. Blue skies, another blog to update. Time to move it. 30 minutes and my weekend is here.
Okay.
So...Day after I mail in lovely layout to Creating Keepsakes, I get an email from Scrapbook Trends requesting the exact same layout. Well...without the alterations CK wanted.
I was like whoa
When you're hot, you're hot.
So then I posted a play a long challenge for the Scrapbook Survivor gig I didn't make it out of the first round for. Much love. Wanna see it? Here it goes:
Life moves fast. Move with it. Or at least just lean with it and rock with it. I need music in my life. Blue skies, another blog to update. Time to move it. 30 minutes and my weekend is here.
Sunday, February 19, 2006
Anyone? Anyone. Have a few kids...a spare husband...I could really get wicked with what I want to say here, but then I wouldn't be sugary sweet and nice enough. Yeah. Like I ever was.
Anyhow. I think I just need to do my own thing. Really. I have all sorts of crazy ideas brewing in my mind, so I think it is time to do as all the folks in person tell me to do and just start my own revolution.
Believe it or not, not every scrapper has kids and a hubby by 28. Just another of those "not cool enough to play with the popular kids" moments. It has passed.
So this weekend I am going to go and make copies of my recent creations so that I can add them to my portfolio. I think I might go back and teach classes. I think I might also do my own book. Crazy...I know. But I have wanted to do this for a while so instead of dreaming of and talking about "when I get famous" it's time to do it myself. Really, there is no other way. Trust me, I've tried. I'm just a bit too odd, out there, trite, and tongue in cheek for America (smile).
So off to seak out inspiration in life and then twist and screw it until it is something of me. Fun times!
Anyhow. I think I just need to do my own thing. Really. I have all sorts of crazy ideas brewing in my mind, so I think it is time to do as all the folks in person tell me to do and just start my own revolution.
Believe it or not, not every scrapper has kids and a hubby by 28. Just another of those "not cool enough to play with the popular kids" moments. It has passed.
So this weekend I am going to go and make copies of my recent creations so that I can add them to my portfolio. I think I might go back and teach classes. I think I might also do my own book. Crazy...I know. But I have wanted to do this for a while so instead of dreaming of and talking about "when I get famous" it's time to do it myself. Really, there is no other way. Trust me, I've tried. I'm just a bit too odd, out there, trite, and tongue in cheek for America (smile).
So off to seak out inspiration in life and then twist and screw it until it is something of me. Fun times!
Friday, February 17, 2006
Do I ever scrap?
Why yes I do.
This little doozie is for the
Scrapbook Survivor contest
at one of the many blogs I read.
If I had a clue, I'd link the html here, but I don't so you'll just have to search for it. Sorry...no patience when I'm on break...
More to come...
I of course will be altering this one and now I have the funds to go out and buy a real camera so...let the fun and games begin.
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Done. Postal.
V-day is done. I made the lovely fun coupons for the BF and he seemed to appreciate them. I didn't get the time to make a card and didn't buy one either--don't think I'd find one that really says what I want to say so I let it go.
Postal. Supposedly, priority mail will make it from Seattle to Utah in 2-3 days. I'm tracking them. Sent off the 2 pager to Creating Keepsakes this morning. Brittany has been a pleasure to work with. Just like Angie was at Simple Scrapbooks. Really, they're just real people (smile).
Time to try and create. I'm blocked right now for the good stuff. Or is this really when the good stuff will come out? We shall see. Check the other blog...
V-day is done. I made the lovely fun coupons for the BF and he seemed to appreciate them. I didn't get the time to make a card and didn't buy one either--don't think I'd find one that really says what I want to say so I let it go.
Postal. Supposedly, priority mail will make it from Seattle to Utah in 2-3 days. I'm tracking them. Sent off the 2 pager to Creating Keepsakes this morning. Brittany has been a pleasure to work with. Just like Angie was at Simple Scrapbooks. Really, they're just real people (smile).
Time to try and create. I'm blocked right now for the good stuff. Or is this really when the good stuff will come out? We shall see. Check the other blog...
Sunday, February 12, 2006
V-day.
Oh what is a girl to do. I think I am pretty positive what I want to do, but it is Tuesday. And it is now Sunday. And I have to be in Oly tomorrow night. So yeah...not so much.
I have to really get a shake on the CBX deal if I'm going to do that. I think I want to go simple which is really not conducive to a CBX win, but somewhere along the lines I saw people posting that they were journaling finalists. I have a lot to say on this album. So for the very least it will make a great gift for a very deserving individual on a special day to come. I look forward to this.
But that brings me back to Valentine's Day and what is a girl to get a boy who has it all. Or at least who knows where to get exactly what he wants a lot cheaper than I ever would. I'll get it done. I always do and it always comes off better than anticipated.
So that brings me now to the AmEx ad questions. Another popular scrap worthy expose. To it goes [be sure to thank Rick's daughter on this one...gotta love those AmEx folks]:
Fondest memory: sitting in a group of super smart kids at the Coca-Cola Scholars Weekend and debating racial issues--super charged, super smart, super empowered. Tied with seeing my nephew Q for the very first time
Soundtrack: Miss New Booty. Yeah right. Uhhhmmm...it would be my own little special mix tape of angry girl/hate men/love/remorse/happy songs.
Retreat: my deck/balcony in a pinch. Someplace warm with only one person by my side
Wildest Dream: Africa. I have to get there
Proudest moment: making the decision to leave home and go to Cornell
Biggest challenge: staying at Cornell for the long haul once my grandmother became ill
Alarm clock: yeah I have one. But typically I wake up to the "aliens" of my cell phone alarm
Perfect day: wake up, see blue sky. It's warm (say 55...), I'm outside. I do something active, eat something good, drink something better, read something fantastic and spend time with someone important. preferably the bf. I'm not rushing to get something else done or to go and do something else.
First job: cotton candy maker at the local ball park
Indulgement: shoes? Where?? Are they on sale? Do I really need to eat? I've made such good progress...I can resist...must...resist...
Last Purchase: scrap stuff (of course) for a project
Favorite Movie: Shawshank Redemption in this moment, Crash in the next...depends on mood
Inspiration: backwards. Looking outside of the box. Seeing the extraordinary in the ordinary
My Life: daughter, sister, wish grantor, good luck charm, lost soul
Oh what is a girl to do. I think I am pretty positive what I want to do, but it is Tuesday. And it is now Sunday. And I have to be in Oly tomorrow night. So yeah...not so much.
I have to really get a shake on the CBX deal if I'm going to do that. I think I want to go simple which is really not conducive to a CBX win, but somewhere along the lines I saw people posting that they were journaling finalists. I have a lot to say on this album. So for the very least it will make a great gift for a very deserving individual on a special day to come. I look forward to this.
But that brings me back to Valentine's Day and what is a girl to get a boy who has it all. Or at least who knows where to get exactly what he wants a lot cheaper than I ever would. I'll get it done. I always do and it always comes off better than anticipated.
So that brings me now to the AmEx ad questions. Another popular scrap worthy expose. To it goes [be sure to thank Rick's daughter on this one...gotta love those AmEx folks]:
***
Childhood ambition: to become a geneticist and play God.Fondest memory: sitting in a group of super smart kids at the Coca-Cola Scholars Weekend and debating racial issues--super charged, super smart, super empowered. Tied with seeing my nephew Q for the very first time
Soundtrack: Miss New Booty. Yeah right. Uhhhmmm...it would be my own little special mix tape of angry girl/hate men/love/remorse/happy songs.
Retreat: my deck/balcony in a pinch. Someplace warm with only one person by my side
Wildest Dream: Africa. I have to get there
Proudest moment: making the decision to leave home and go to Cornell
Biggest challenge: staying at Cornell for the long haul once my grandmother became ill
Alarm clock: yeah I have one. But typically I wake up to the "aliens" of my cell phone alarm
Perfect day: wake up, see blue sky. It's warm (say 55...), I'm outside. I do something active, eat something good, drink something better, read something fantastic and spend time with someone important. preferably the bf. I'm not rushing to get something else done or to go and do something else.
First job: cotton candy maker at the local ball park
Indulgement: shoes? Where?? Are they on sale? Do I really need to eat? I've made such good progress...I can resist...must...resist...
Last Purchase: scrap stuff (of course) for a project
Favorite Movie: Shawshank Redemption in this moment, Crash in the next...depends on mood
Inspiration: backwards. Looking outside of the box. Seeing the extraordinary in the ordinary
My Life: daughter, sister, wish grantor, good luck charm, lost soul
Friday, February 10, 2006
HoF. Not. But I did help to make another woman's entry into another major contest possible by RAKing a bit of supplies to her. Here's hoping she is a finalist and uses some of it so that I can live vicariously through others.
I just ran out of time on HoF. And I was starting to create pages that I really, REALLY loved. So perhaps I'll use the assignments as impetus for creating more great pages and really getting on the submission ball this year. I'm hyped about the CK page request and need to get over the whole "fear of networking" thing and do as I'm told--use those connections! Why not send your materials directly to the people who can make the decisions. So why not indeed.
Time to work it all out. Evidently, I'm dramatic enough for another Laura adventure at 2ps so...yipee!
I just ran out of time on HoF. And I was starting to create pages that I really, REALLY loved. So perhaps I'll use the assignments as impetus for creating more great pages and really getting on the submission ball this year. I'm hyped about the CK page request and need to get over the whole "fear of networking" thing and do as I'm told--use those connections! Why not send your materials directly to the people who can make the decisions. So why not indeed.
Time to work it all out. Evidently, I'm dramatic enough for another Laura adventure at 2ps so...yipee!
Monday, February 06, 2006
Hof. Yeah right. Maybe, likely not. We'll see after tonight. Move on to CBX instead? I think so. I'm a bit burned out on it. Gotta send the scan of the altered LO. Fun times to finally make Creating Keepsakes. Life is good. Tired, but good. maybe I'll sit on the deck this evening, have a nice huge bowl of pasta and just enjoy it. Weather has been fantastic lately. Plenty of good light for pictures. Time to research a great camera since this will be my last major purchase for quite a while.
Sunday, January 29, 2006
And since the question of "10 years ago" not only came up (and is discussed on Colored White blog), and I saw it on all my fave scrap blogs, time to tag and tell again:
What were you doing 10 years ago? Getting ready to graduate from high school. More specifically, I was prepping for the Miss Black El Paso Pageant, completing my Coca-Cola Scholar Semifinalist application, waiting on my letter of admission to Cornell and just loving life as the stat keeper for my little brother's AAU basketball team.
What were you doing one year ago? In relationship counseling, "finishing up" my master's degree, trying to figure out what to do with my life
Five snacks that you enjoy:
1. uhhhmmm...I rarely eat.
2. seriously
3. really.
4. well, i eat like one big meal a day
5. most folks "snack" is typically my meal so...can't really get into this one
Five songs to which you KNOW all the lyrics: [singing along to...]
1. Check up On It (Beyonce) [goodness they play it enough on Kube 93]
2. Twinkle Twinkle Litte Star
3. My Old Cornell
4. Cornell Alama Matter (of course)
5. Star Spangled Banner
Five things you would do if you were a millionaire:
1. Invest most of it so that I'd have more money to play with
2. pay off all the bills first (grad school wasn't cheap...)
3.buy the usual (house for mama, set up college plans for the nephews, take care of those who cared for me)
4. hire a lawyer to stick it to my ex landlord (I'm kidding...I'd just pay it all off and be done w/it)
5. travel, travel and then travel a bit more
Five bad habits:
1. making people wait for me
2. never saying no
3. requiring absolute perfection
4. not sticking it out with my to do lists
5. procrastinating
Five things you like doing:
1. spending time with boyfriend
2. a good job--at work, in scrapbooking, in my board work, in life.
3. organizing/REALLY cleaning something (like scrubbing, etc.)
4. hanging out on the phone (and even moreso in person) with my family (nephew, mom, etc.)
5. taking pictures
Five things you would never wear, buy or get again:
1. leg warmers (like dancers wear)
2. size 8 clothes (alas)
3. film camera
4. cheap, knock off, printer ink (like refillable cartridges)
5. a vcr tape
Five favorite toys:
1. cell phone
2. laptop
3. colored post it notes (nerdy, I know)
4. asssortment of ultra fine sharpies in wonderful colors (super nerdy, I know)
5. it is long gone and hard to replace, but I ADORED my PDA
Five people you will be emailing tomorrow:
1. random wannabe lawyer confused by the application deadline
2. random wannabe lawyer #2 worried that we didn't yet process their ap from 12/24/2005
3. BF (of course)
4. probably Andrea
5. likely Liisa
Fun times. Roll with it.
What were you doing 10 years ago? Getting ready to graduate from high school. More specifically, I was prepping for the Miss Black El Paso Pageant, completing my Coca-Cola Scholar Semifinalist application, waiting on my letter of admission to Cornell and just loving life as the stat keeper for my little brother's AAU basketball team.
What were you doing one year ago? In relationship counseling, "finishing up" my master's degree, trying to figure out what to do with my life
Five snacks that you enjoy:
1. uhhhmmm...I rarely eat.
2. seriously
3. really.
4. well, i eat like one big meal a day
5. most folks "snack" is typically my meal so...can't really get into this one
Five songs to which you KNOW all the lyrics: [singing along to...]
1. Check up On It (Beyonce) [goodness they play it enough on Kube 93]
2. Twinkle Twinkle Litte Star
3. My Old Cornell
4. Cornell Alama Matter (of course)
5. Star Spangled Banner
Five things you would do if you were a millionaire:
1. Invest most of it so that I'd have more money to play with
2. pay off all the bills first (grad school wasn't cheap...)
3.buy the usual (house for mama, set up college plans for the nephews, take care of those who cared for me)
4. hire a lawyer to stick it to my ex landlord (I'm kidding...I'd just pay it all off and be done w/it)
5. travel, travel and then travel a bit more
Five bad habits:
1. making people wait for me
2. never saying no
3. requiring absolute perfection
4. not sticking it out with my to do lists
5. procrastinating
Five things you like doing:
1. spending time with boyfriend
2. a good job--at work, in scrapbooking, in my board work, in life.
3. organizing/REALLY cleaning something (like scrubbing, etc.)
4. hanging out on the phone (and even moreso in person) with my family (nephew, mom, etc.)
5. taking pictures
Five things you would never wear, buy or get again:
1. leg warmers (like dancers wear)
2. size 8 clothes (alas)
3. film camera
4. cheap, knock off, printer ink (like refillable cartridges)
5. a vcr tape
Five favorite toys:
1. cell phone
2. laptop
3. colored post it notes (nerdy, I know)
4. asssortment of ultra fine sharpies in wonderful colors (super nerdy, I know)
5. it is long gone and hard to replace, but I ADORED my PDA
Five people you will be emailing tomorrow:
1. random wannabe lawyer confused by the application deadline
2. random wannabe lawyer #2 worried that we didn't yet process their ap from 12/24/2005
3. BF (of course)
4. probably Andrea
5. likely Liisa
Fun times. Roll with it.
Pub me now! Wowweee...
Friday, I got a fantastic email from one of the fantastic editors at Creating Keepsakes. Guess who FINALLY got a CK page call? I thought it would never happen. I am so happy. I have some alterations to do to the page, but I love it and it will be fantastic and it will appear in the June issue. Which means it will be out in a couple of weeks (hahaha...running joke amongst those in the know that CK puts out the Feb issue in like November...).
Super psyched and it gave me the juice to create. Got all sorts of inspiration for great ideas and now just can't wait to get the time to actually do it. Might have some time tonight. I love 8.5 x 11 and odd shapes and sizes nowadays. I thought I would never stray from 12 x 12 because I loved all the space allowed, but really, space is relative.
I love how my life works. Get a bit frustrated and get to the point of just about to give up and alas, something wonderful comes along. That is how I get up every day loving life--because I know that no matter how bad it gets, a better day is coming.
Friday, I got a fantastic email from one of the fantastic editors at Creating Keepsakes. Guess who FINALLY got a CK page call? I thought it would never happen. I am so happy. I have some alterations to do to the page, but I love it and it will be fantastic and it will appear in the June issue. Which means it will be out in a couple of weeks (hahaha...running joke amongst those in the know that CK puts out the Feb issue in like November...).
Super psyched and it gave me the juice to create. Got all sorts of inspiration for great ideas and now just can't wait to get the time to actually do it. Might have some time tonight. I love 8.5 x 11 and odd shapes and sizes nowadays. I thought I would never stray from 12 x 12 because I loved all the space allowed, but really, space is relative.
I love how my life works. Get a bit frustrated and get to the point of just about to give up and alas, something wonderful comes along. That is how I get up every day loving life--because I know that no matter how bad it gets, a better day is coming.
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Back on the horse. Saw this on my fave blog and since most people don't know me from Adam to tag me for anything, I'll tag and spread the love. Here goes!
Three jobs you have had in your life:
Dishwasher
Ivy League Admission Counselor
Director of Diversity & Equity
Three movies you would watch over and over:
Fargo
A Perfect Murder
A Civil Action
Three places you have lived:
El Paso, Texas
Ithaca, New York
Seattle, Washington
Three TV shows you love to watch:
West Wing
Law & Order (any version)
Rescue Me
Three places you have been on vacation:
Victoria, BC
St. Martin/St. Maarten
Big Sur, CA
Three websites I visit daily:
www.twopeasinabucket.com
www.law.seattleu.edu
www.bloglines.com
Three of my favorite foods:
sushi
pizza
pasta (just about any kind)
Three places I would rather be right now:
El Paso, Texas
in BFs arms
on the scrapworks dt (had to get it in)
Three people I need to get back in touch with:
Marc
Alex
Rachel
Okay...so, instead of tagging someone else. I'll email the three folks I need to get back in touch with. Case closed.
(modified of course for threes and then some)...
Three jobs you have had in your life:
Dishwasher
Ivy League Admission Counselor
Director of Diversity & Equity
Three movies you would watch over and over:
Fargo
A Perfect Murder
A Civil Action
Three places you have lived:
El Paso, Texas
Ithaca, New York
Seattle, Washington
Three TV shows you love to watch:
West Wing
Law & Order (any version)
Rescue Me
Three places you have been on vacation:
Victoria, BC
St. Martin/St. Maarten
Big Sur, CA
Three websites I visit daily:
www.twopeasinabucket.com
www.law.seattleu.edu
www.bloglines.com
Three of my favorite foods:
sushi
pizza
pasta (just about any kind)
Three places I would rather be right now:
El Paso, Texas
in BFs arms
on the scrapworks dt (had to get it in)
Three people I need to get back in touch with:
Marc
Alex
Rachel
Okay...so, instead of tagging someone else. I'll email the three folks I need to get back in touch with. Case closed.
Friday, January 20, 2006
Well.
It's up. And I'm not on it. I don't know why I even held out hope on this one. Actually, I don't understand how I can work in the profession that I do and make the decisions I do and not be able to brace myself for this.
Obviously (smile), I didn't make the team.
Wow. This one kinda hurt. I think because I actually thought I had a shot. Not so much on talent when, sigh, when it comes right down to it is what you actually need to be a designer. Sigh. But because I really thought I had something unique and gifted to offer.
I can't do this anymore. I mean, it is in my blood to compete. So when people tell me "do it for you and your family" I get a bit angered because I have no family to do it for. I do this for this--to compete for design teams...to win contests. I don't do it to fill a book of pages. That was a bit of the "unique" I felt I had to offer. Anyhow. There are times when you just have to know that you are not it. Somewhat like when I have to tell a wannabe lawyer that really, maybe their talents are better served elsewhere, I really wish that someone, anyone would tell me that maybe my talents are better served somewhere else. I think I could withstand that so much more than "well, you should just keep trying."
The highs are high and the lows are low. Welcome to my world. I get contacted out of nowhere to send in projects off of concept sketches and to be on design teams and I win decently major contests when I know what the rules of play are. But when it is all subjective, I just cannot do it. And the lows are low. This is why despite all the hard work and inate ability I never became a musician or a dancer. And I never truly entertained the idea of professionally doing the photography or design gig and getting trained in it because I could never deal with the constant rejection. So now I see.
Sigh. Just rambling because the places I'd normally do this are so not appropriate for this.
I still love Scrapworks. Still love their amazing product. Still will try again next year. Still will cry a river when I try to break out their stuff and work with it. But such is life. Life in Contest series is back again this year and I still have a CKU Tuition credit to cash in. See--mood swings are horrendous with me. 5 minutes ago I could all but see the keyboard to type.
Thank goodness it is lunch break at work and I HAVE to pull it together.
Deep breath. Time to get back on with my real life.
It's up. And I'm not on it. I don't know why I even held out hope on this one. Actually, I don't understand how I can work in the profession that I do and make the decisions I do and not be able to brace myself for this.
Obviously (smile), I didn't make the team.
Wow. This one kinda hurt. I think because I actually thought I had a shot. Not so much on talent when, sigh, when it comes right down to it is what you actually need to be a designer. Sigh. But because I really thought I had something unique and gifted to offer.
I can't do this anymore. I mean, it is in my blood to compete. So when people tell me "do it for you and your family" I get a bit angered because I have no family to do it for. I do this for this--to compete for design teams...to win contests. I don't do it to fill a book of pages. That was a bit of the "unique" I felt I had to offer. Anyhow. There are times when you just have to know that you are not it. Somewhat like when I have to tell a wannabe lawyer that really, maybe their talents are better served elsewhere, I really wish that someone, anyone would tell me that maybe my talents are better served somewhere else. I think I could withstand that so much more than "well, you should just keep trying."
The highs are high and the lows are low. Welcome to my world. I get contacted out of nowhere to send in projects off of concept sketches and to be on design teams and I win decently major contests when I know what the rules of play are. But when it is all subjective, I just cannot do it. And the lows are low. This is why despite all the hard work and inate ability I never became a musician or a dancer. And I never truly entertained the idea of professionally doing the photography or design gig and getting trained in it because I could never deal with the constant rejection. So now I see.
Sigh. Just rambling because the places I'd normally do this are so not appropriate for this.
I still love Scrapworks. Still love their amazing product. Still will try again next year. Still will cry a river when I try to break out their stuff and work with it. But such is life. Life in Contest series is back again this year and I still have a CKU Tuition credit to cash in. See--mood swings are horrendous with me. 5 minutes ago I could all but see the keyboard to type.
Thank goodness it is lunch break at work and I HAVE to pull it together.
Deep breath. Time to get back on with my real life.
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
T-minus three days and holding breath still. God I hope to all heaven they are not doing calls and then posting because I would be losing hope now. I really just want them to post it. And someone to email me and say "congratulations."
Kind of the whole "if it's true that I didn't make it, just let the silence envelope me" bit. Ala West Wing--if I shouldn't go to the President and tell him his son in law is sleeping with the nanny say nothing right now".
I want it. Bad. Too bad...my ap SUCKED! Pitty party tomorrow at my place. B there or B square.
Yeah.
Kind of the whole "if it's true that I didn't make it, just let the silence envelope me" bit. Ala West Wing--if I shouldn't go to the President and tell him his son in law is sleeping with the nanny say nothing right now".
I want it. Bad. Too bad...my ap SUCKED! Pitty party tomorrow at my place. B there or B square.
Yeah.
Saturday, January 14, 2006
Accepted. Well...delivery at least. I don't know if I can bare to wait until Friday to find out I didn't make it. That said, here's some of the stuff from my entry.
The absolute weakest link to my entry. See...what had happened was when I photo'd the original one pager, it came off very flat. You couldn't tell the patterned paper variations, couldn't see any of the dimension. So I started futzing with the scan in Micro Photo whatever and did a lot of the damage. Started just adding lines to the fabric letters so they would stand out and you could read that it said patch. Then started added digital brads and the journaling and the wreck just could not be turned away from. Alas. Bad thing is it is in my entry packet. Good thing is that most of the horrendousness of this layout is the digital altering sooo...I still have a really great layout I love in person that I can add the digital {s}crap to or I can love it as is. Yeah.
My two pager. I actually like this better in person (of course). But I printed the photo on a sheet of labels and then pieced it all back together. Lots of rubons (of course--my fave), a tailored tab, my second fave product the Scrapworks Hugs...Just like the overall feel of this one. All about life happening and just laughing and smiling and taking it all in stride.
The absolute weakest link to my entry. See...what had happened was when I photo'd the original one pager, it came off very flat. You couldn't tell the patterned paper variations, couldn't see any of the dimension. So I started futzing with the scan in Micro Photo whatever and did a lot of the damage. Started just adding lines to the fabric letters so they would stand out and you could read that it said patch. Then started added digital brads and the journaling and the wreck just could not be turned away from. Alas. Bad thing is it is in my entry packet. Good thing is that most of the horrendousness of this layout is the digital altering sooo...I still have a really great layout I love in person that I can add the digital {s}crap to or I can love it as is. Yeah.
Project--inside the box is the actual project. It rocks. It is cool. Unfortunately, I don't think I used enough Scrapworks on it. Alas. After HoF I'll post the entire project. Really, the box is nothing. The project inside is what I am totally psyched by. I won't use this one, but I have a far more intricate version of it that I am using for my memory keepsake project for the HoF entry. I think. Yeah...should get on that I guess.
My two pager. I actually like this better in person (of course). But I printed the photo on a sheet of labels and then pieced it all back together. Lots of rubons (of course--my fave), a tailored tab, my second fave product the Scrapworks Hugs...Just like the overall feel of this one. All about life happening and just laughing and smiling and taking it all in stride.
Now, believe it or not. I hatED this when I first created it. Just figured the colors were off and there was something missing. Finally, I added the penned in lines right above the orange cardstock and it seemed to finally have a finished look. Then I sanded the edges and it really finally looked doable. Love how the hugz and patterened paper **used scrapworks with another MF...showed the versatility of their product with others cause really...who only buys from one manufacturer nowadays** worked on this one.
Took the time to pay attention to presentation on this one too. Instead of just going down the list of DT questions, I actually did a really cute word generated layout type deal. Let them know how friggin' out there I am. If only I could figure out how to turn a word file into a jpeg without scanning it, I could post it here or on twop's. Alas. I don't think I can figure it out and it is too date for me to give much of a damn anymore. I'm too frustrated with it.
Did a different take on the 200 words about ourself/stuff we wanted them to know about us. I'll just retype that here. Maybe tomorrow I'll figure out the actual questionnaire stuff.
200 words (or so...)
Are you serious? 200 words? So you really don’t want any scrappers on this team eh? Okay. 200:
B - bold, beautiful, brainy. Check out the blog @ b3designs.blogspot.com
E - ecstatic over my Best of Show win at CK WA
R - Reaaaaallllly fun[ny] all around gal w/the “Best All Around Senior” award
to prove it.
N - Non-traditional. I don’t live in Utah. I’m not married. I have no kids. I
have a bit of melanin to keep a winter tan. I work (a lot) outside the home.
I can expand your market.
A - Adaptable. I can take it down or kick it up a notch.
D - Dependable. Especially on deadline.
E - Educator. By profession, by nature.
T - Talented. Uniquely so.
T - Type A personality. But not quite retentive and always fun to be around.
E - Eclectic. What can I say. A bit funky, a bit odd. All me.
Less than 200. But those are the highlights.
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Shoot. Did it. Pulled the trigger. The ap is on its merry little way to Utah. Certainly a good thing I have everything under the sun going on this coming week to keep my mind off of the non-call.
And then there is HoF. I have borrowed one of BF's cameras. It took some amazing photos of the scrapworks entry stuff. Rocks. I have to say the entry itself, rocked. There was one layout that drove me nuts and looks like crapitycrapcrapcrap, but the other three pieces rock the house. Was not loving my card until I photo'd it. Nice. Loved my two pager for a long, long time and will likely alter it for a fave/gunked up HoF entry. But I love it to pieces. And my paper project...adore it. Already have requests from others to reproduce for them and the concept will be my HoF memory keepsake. Loving it. Two HoF deals done.
Had I not been a procrastinator, I could have redone my one pager. It looks so fantastic in person. Just with the lighting and all, didn't get the depth to distinguish between all of the patterned papers evenly. And at one point, I loved the photo, but not so much now. Would have loved to have had some green hugs. And to have broken out the staples and ribbon. Perhaps another alterable LO for HoF. We'll see.
So there you have it. Scrapworks, check. Can't win if you don't compete. Not a chance in heck really, but oh my word what a year this would be if I were on their team.
And then there is HoF. I have borrowed one of BF's cameras. It took some amazing photos of the scrapworks entry stuff. Rocks. I have to say the entry itself, rocked. There was one layout that drove me nuts and looks like crapitycrapcrapcrap, but the other three pieces rock the house. Was not loving my card until I photo'd it. Nice. Loved my two pager for a long, long time and will likely alter it for a fave/gunked up HoF entry. But I love it to pieces. And my paper project...adore it. Already have requests from others to reproduce for them and the concept will be my HoF memory keepsake. Loving it. Two HoF deals done.
Had I not been a procrastinator, I could have redone my one pager. It looks so fantastic in person. Just with the lighting and all, didn't get the depth to distinguish between all of the patterned papers evenly. And at one point, I loved the photo, but not so much now. Would have loved to have had some green hugs. And to have broken out the staples and ribbon. Perhaps another alterable LO for HoF. We'll see.
So there you have it. Scrapworks, check. Can't win if you don't compete. Not a chance in heck really, but oh my word what a year this would be if I were on their team.
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Scrapworks. Whisper the name. Shhh...a moment of silence. Breath. Okay.
I so, so, so, so, so want to apply. But I really don't think I have a shot in heck and I'm scared to send it in. Sigh. The agony of defeat. Especially when you don't even try. I need to just do it already. But what if they don't like me? What if it's not a matter of there being just plain stronger scrappers, but a matter of them just not liking me?
Bad part of it all? I will never know. Gulp. My mouth is dry. I need to release the box. Send it in. Before it costs me half a fortune to do so. And then there is HoF. I guess I know I really don't have a shot in heck at that one (although my fantastically fantastic owner of FiberScraps broke down the math for us DT girls there). Kinda scary.
One day I'll make it. Right after I get internet access at home. Just found the AC adapter. One step at a time gals. One step at a time.
I so, so, so, so, so want to apply. But I really don't think I have a shot in heck and I'm scared to send it in. Sigh. The agony of defeat. Especially when you don't even try. I need to just do it already. But what if they don't like me? What if it's not a matter of there being just plain stronger scrappers, but a matter of them just not liking me?
Bad part of it all? I will never know. Gulp. My mouth is dry. I need to release the box. Send it in. Before it costs me half a fortune to do so. And then there is HoF. I guess I know I really don't have a shot in heck at that one (although my fantastically fantastic owner of FiberScraps broke down the math for us DT girls there). Kinda scary.
One day I'll make it. Right after I get internet access at home. Just found the AC adapter. One step at a time gals. One step at a time.
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